Dreams Unlimited

What is with me and dreams?? 

I get some dreams, which make me feel that they are real and happening when I am dreaming. This keeps my mind busy for some part of the day which is good but some dreams are really disturbing. I even dreamt that I am running naked on a busy road. Thank GOD.. dreams are dreams and they never get real.

I feel Déjà vu sometimes. Do I have any hidden power and I am not able to explore it? Ha ha ha

I wanted to share dreams, which kept me thinking for a loooong time.

Dream 1 - on early morning of 11th Nov, 2012:
Even though I was working in a corporate company, I was selected as body guard (me as bodyguard..!) for opposition leader of a prominent National political leader and present CM of one of the Indian states who is getting ready to face elections for 3rd time. I was wearing a safari suit and was escorting him to the convoy waiting at the building entrance. The building entrance had 4 or 5 lengthy steps and lot of flowerpots dotted the edges. We were on 3rd or 4th step when gunfire started out of nowhere. He was escorted into the building and a bullet hit me in the stomach. I was down behind a flowerpot and then fell unconscious.

The next scene was in a hospital room. Couple of doctors, 3 men in white kurtas surrounded my bed. Heart beat rate monitor was beside and I was on ventilator. On the top, news was shown on tv about the incidents happened.

It seems I have seen the gunmen and that I should be killed – This was the conclusion from the 3 men and the doctors were given instructions to inject me something which would kill me slowly. They still had plans to kill the leader. The doctors went out to fetch it and then the 3 men followed.

As my father came in to visit me, I was shouting at my father to take me out so that I can reveal everything and the leader could be saved.

---- The End ----

Dream 2 – middle of 2007-year and early morning:
This was filled with suspense and my body was sweating when I woke up.

A young girl sets her foot in tirupati railway station to do some research on tirumala – the amount of people visiting for the darshan of the Lord, from which location they are coming, and lot of other details.

She boards an auto and asks him to suggest a good and comfortable stay for about a week. She then tries to strike a conversation with him to know about the city, the people and activities going on. The driver starts feels weird, as this is the first time he sees that a girl, travelling alone is staying in a hotel.

She is shown a room very small but neat enough. She starts the day with her material for collecting the data by visiting the bus station and then the railway station and then laddu counter. All the places are heavily crowded.

Wherever she goes, the people being questioned by her are surprised why is she collecting the details from them. She received curious looks, puzzled faces, and long stares from each of them. All around, some kind of suspicion starts building up.

She then sees a huge departmental store. The ground floor was having normal daily provisions and the upper floor had all the pooja items. She enters the store to see that its empty, tries to find some one when she is attacked.

The person hit her from behind; be her instinct or her luck, she turned back at that instant and escaped the hit on her head. She ran into the store where all the provisions were lying around in racks. The person follows her, grabs her neck. She retaliates and hits him. The scuffle goes on for a while; the girl is getting weaker to hold him off. She then grabs an oil bottle made of glass (keo karpin was the oil name) and tries to break on his head. She is successful in her second attempt.

The man goes down in pain, blood coming down on his face.

---- The End ----

Dream# 3: in the middle of the year 2007:
3.45 AM was the time when this dream woke me up. I was disturbed. I could still feel the aura of her around me even after I woke up. I tried to check if the face was matching any of the girls I knew but did not find any familiarity. I do not even remember the face after I woke up. This dream of mine lingered in me for many days.

The person  : myself
The scene   : a hill station (of course with dense fog) with a black, clean tar road
The time     : early morning 6ish.
The activity : Jogging (I do not in reality)
The dress    : jogger’s dress, a light color hoody and shoes on

I love early morning jogs. The air is fresh. People and dogs are still sleepy. Paper and milk boys roam around. Its much peaceful in a hill station. Sun light just starting up.

I was in my usual jogging routine. I am here on some official work and would be leaving in some days to come.

While I was reaching my guesthouse, I noticed a small group of boys harassing a herd of sheep. They were throwing stones, pulling the tails. I shouted at them to get away from the herd and continued.

The guesthouse was a group of 4 or 5 rooms. The open place is filled with creeper plants acting as roof for the patio.  Behind the guesthouse were hills.

I was about to enter the house compound as I noticed a girl standing in the open place

Oh.. so this is the girl who my friend introduced 2 days ago as his sister was my thought.

She was in a simple cotton punjabi dress yet elegant. Do not remember her hair if it was long or short. Bright face. Good height.

She said hello to which I reciprocated with a smile and then went into my room.

Probably after 2 days or so it was raining heavily, I was returning to the room as I noticed the girl standing outside and searching for her keys.

మీరు లోపలికి రావొచ్చు.. ఏమీ పర్వాలేదు

లేదు.. నేను తాళాల కోసం wait చేస్తాను

The last thing I remember is having bread for dinner and then dozing off after in the room. 

She was in my room and woke me up. Told me that I was down with high temperature since 2 days and had not eaten anything.

She brought hot rasam and rice in disposable cups and I was about to have it when she touched my forehead to check the temperature.

---- The End ----

 P.S: Who is the girl?



Why do I hate my job these days?

Honestly speaking, I used to love my job till a while ago, even though I never had an ambition to become a computer engineer.

-- I loved all the learning during my first 2 years on job.
-- I loved leading a team
-- I loved being the onsite coordinator and dealing with the client and to manage a team back at offshore after coming to US.

The reasons are:
-- Not receiving due recognition for work
-- Fight for leaves
-- Not being in the right project
-- Personal life being impacted sometimes
-- Unplanned work on weekends

In other areas like cinema, sports or politics etc, probably the person would instantly recognized for the success where as in software field, I did not find it instantly. It’s not an overnight process. This could be the main reason why the new dislike for my job.

Moreover, I am in a service-based company all through. If I was a part of a product based company or a direct Client Company, the experience would have been different.

This perception of mine may change if I get a right project. Apart from working in an office, I don’t know anything else for my living. I guess I would be in this field for a while.

Retrieved from my favorite Ram Gopal Varma's blog. Not sure of the source:

“A lion wakes up everyday and starts running after a deer to survive. A deer wakes up everyday and starts running from a lion to survive. So the point is that it does not matter whether you are a lion or a deer. You just have to keep running.”