Freedom of loneliness

I always prefer to be alone most of the times. Don’t feel pity for me or feel that I maybe suffering from depression. I am happy being with myself and spending time with me for some reasons.

Reason# 1:

Since my childhood I always had 1 (or max 2) best buddy(ies) at any point of time.

-- The one from my 3^rd class & +2 is in Canada.

-- No idea about my 8^th class friend.

-- Couple of friends from 9th & 10th are in US.

-- The one from grad in US.

-- One from Mysore training is in US. Other one is married.

I am comfortable hanging out with these people. I can command them and I don’t mind even if I had to obey them. I cannot command other people and feel very very uncomfortable & awkward if I listen to them. Hence I do not ask others to come out with me.

Reason# 2:

Money. Many a times I was the scapegoat to burn my pockets. I still do not get the logic why people get down from auto and look left and then right and then adjust the hair without taking out the purse and pay the fare for the auto..! Complete a** holes.

               You see, I have complete understanding with the buddies I mentioned previously. I don’t mind paying up for them because they are my best friends and are completely of my type. Anyway we completely understand each other even if I am the one who is spending everything or he is the one who is pending everything we have complete freedom of asking for money if we feel like. We do not feel bad about it with each other. And you know what, we generally tend to ask each other how much we have spent and whats the share.

               Boss, if someone is spending for you, it is your duty to ask how much was spent and whats the share and pay it up at the end of the day.

Many a times, I was the one who will be booking tickets in multiplexes through online and end up at home after watching the movie without getting any money for their share of tickets.

Don’t feel that I am a miser/something. If you feel like that I can’t help.

Reason# 3:

I am very passionate and child like in some things. If I happen to see something new and is very rare to buy then I will go to any extent to find it and buy it even if I had to travel 40 or 50 KMs. Some may find it odd if ask them out to buy a car hanging which symbolizes Kerala tradition and can get it only at Chikpet, near Majestic, Bangalore which is 26 KMs away from Electronic city or to have a plate of idly which is available only at 7:00 AM somewhere interior of Nampally, Hyderabad on a Sunday morning. I get back a devastating look from them and think that I am mad.

Hence I go alone in order to escape from their peculiar looks.

Reason# 4:

I am very quick at getting ready and punctual to reach my destination. I hate being lazy or getting up late at 10:30 AM and go for a movie at 11:30 AM by hurrying things up. I am not the kind of person who broods for an hour chewing the toothbrush in my mouth and sit in front of TV for one hour.

               
I can move around on my own rules. If I feel like walking I can walk for 3 hours. I can go in auto and end up paying 200/- if I have to and need not ask anyone if its ok to pay this much

I can decide, travel or take a sudden detour and suddenly change plans on my terms.

“For them lonesomeness is the plight of sick one. For me it’s the flight from the sick ones.”- Friedrich Nietzsche